Frustrated

In ma, in order to be a music teacher, you have to take the communication and literacy mtel and the music mtel. We were told throughout our education that MA licensure would be applicable in pretty much every state.  Well it's not true. In Virginia, they require the VCLA and the music content Praxis. 

So this is more money and more testing. So currently I have to study and pay for 2 more tests and a licensure application so I can maybe apply for a teaching job. 

For music therapy, I need to take my MTBC. Also more money and more studying. 

I've applied for numerous sitter/nanny positions, because I don't want another job that I'm not passionate about. 

I'm sick of people suggesting I should get a job. 

I've worked my ass off for the past 21 years. Right now I have some decisions to make. 

Instead of getting a job right now, I may go back to school, either for a third bachelors degree, or for a masters. I've only been graduated for 3 weeks now. I haven't had a real vacation in years. I've just moved away from friends and family into a trance place. I have a lot of stress currently and I'm not willing to take a job that will stress me out more. 

Evan and I can manage our money well and can live off one income if it is necessary. 

I want to have time to breathe. I also want to take a break. I need time to adjust before rushing into another big thing.